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#1 - dead on page 596
apologies to anyone who felt bad about the harry potter spoiler thingy. it was my inner asshole at work. anyways, snape does kill dumbledore, snape is the half-blood prince. his dad is a wizard and his mom is a 'muggle' named eileen prince (that's called a surprise twist, kiddies!). anyways, move on people. it's not the end of the world.

#2 - pain in the rain
here's an entry i made on my 9210i (not actually mine, just a hand-me-down) within the past week:

i kept holding back my tears. when she replied denying my request, when she refused to be with me for the weekend, when she said what she said the way she always said them, i held back my tears. the maiden. she's been cold to me since tuesday. it's like seeing yourself backstabbed, third person p.o.v. the tears are hard to control. i try to push them back into my eyes. i havent cried for a long time and i didnt want to cry now. especially not in front of my friends/coworkers. work sucks. but it's somethin i gotta do despite an aching heart.
out of the craphole and into the rain. and then i could hold back no more. the tears pour out like corks were unplugged from my eyes. did the rain make me cry. no. i think the rain LET me cry. i walked all the way to our apartment, weeping the rain, wishing somethin bad to happen to me.
no luck.

um, all i could say is one big "sheesh..."

#3 - morning wood
im on the am shift now, 7am to 4pm. finally! woohoo! waking up so early is the worst part of it. i mean i literally have to take command of my body and pull myself off the bed. even if i had more than enough sleep. that's the crucial part of my day right there, hauling my ass out the bedroom and into the bathroom. but after that, smoothness. well, unless id be given a ton of plugs to finish, but even that seems easy with the office pressure minused. the system blows but thanks to our good-natured oic's, it seems like it doesnt. i love this shift.

p.s. i miss whispie.